im realli wanna move on!~
today:260209
have not been blogging for quite some time.... cos u noe, i no have a comp or a laptop...
now can blog because in skool lab mahhs... dun misunderstand ish teacher let us dehr okie..
hahhas...
past few day had some test wasn't doing well.. haiis....
still the same, trapped in the past memorises....
dunno which day i went home , i open the window and the grill then sit infront of it man.. its like i can fall at anytime lahr... so, i hear songs then cried for quite a long time i guess....
hmmmph, then tried to pick up myself and move on luhhs...
hmmph, maybe i shld realli move on lahr.... but must need help luhhs...
glad that i got syl,grace and others to help me up when i break down...
thank! l0ve uue guy...
hmmm, nw having frens around ish much more important than a freaking fucking stead bahhs...
dunch ue guys think so ??
really want somebody or a few someone to remove my agnoy luhhs...
get me out of my memorises then mayb, just mayb i cn move on...
UMM, so when i get realli high in school it may means that i just wan to be happy and think of nothing else!!!!!! wahh, now write ish like the sad feeling ish back lohr...
okay lahr, dun sad much already...
lesson going to start lehr...
TADAAAAA~
will write again asap**
EVANGELINE ISH HATING HERSELF^^
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what my dream stands for...
2nd post: yea, ytd dream tat i wan crying coz i dunno who is gettng seperated
and also dream of swimming pool with full water and i dunno wad i was doing.. forgotten..
heehees.. so...
CRYING
If you dream you are crying, your mind is helping to achieve emotional balance while you sleep. You are getting out frustrations that would slow you down in your waking life.
(should be true coz im very frustrated..)
swimming pool
To see a swimming pool full of water in your dream is lucky, symbolizing that you will find much happiness and pleasure in friendship, love and marriage.
(maybe coz i wan to find a person that realli love me?!)
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im crazy!
today:180209
u noe , ytd was like so emo...
i also dunno whiies..
is like was resting so ask syl to call..
then he was juz playing and like shouted 'wad lahr'..
but somehow it affected me...
so, was like begin to em0..
ummmm, was darm unhappy for making syl unhappy...
so mood was like down down down!!!
went in toliet and cried..
punch the floor, wall so hand is like abit blue black but nt much..
hais, still regret for wad i did to love one i guess...
so i went to the storero0m..
dunno some how took a penknife and u noe..
have the pic but to0 stupid dunno how to load it...
woke up tdy still down till mayb recess..
he cheer me up lohr..
guess he the one tat know im sad bahhs.. and ya my laopuo knew to0..
so glad to have him luhhs...
hmmmph, ib let me have a chance to turn time back, maybe, just maybe i won't make
the wrong decision again... but its too late to turn things back... its too late....
lesson tdy was boring, no mood to study u noe...
ajhdiuhfiuhrurhg dj doihwfoe fndkfna s...
ughhhh, spamming here..
hope i won't be so emo lehr...
its not fun also.
now hand got cuts, must hide for family...
but who care, its my hand nt others... jus mayb those who care will come to me bahhs..
evangeline l0ve RED
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i wan to move on(my mood)
2nd post of the day..
having a bad headache after thinking alot of thing..
was crying and chatiing with syl..
so glad tat his there for me..
mayb, jus mayb god isn't so bad..
he left me syl..
least i noe he care..
i wana move on..
but its kinda hard..
feel to see *red* GET IT?
haiis..
wad shld i do?
i dunno...
i dun dare to say tat i love..
im scared of the same ending..
not once not twice, not trice but four times!!!!
is there anyone out there tat would be able to
remove my memorises
remove my agony?
i really hope so..
hope tat the someone come fast, come now..
really no good guys out there anymore..?
*wonder*
altot no ppl will see this but im jus expressing myself..
evangeline living in agony!!!
WARNING: when u're in the dark, and theres hand for ue ..
dun believe it...
it will push u further down..
believe me..=(
wad is love..? can't be explain? i dun think so ..
shouldn't it be juz sweet where u care for the party??
should i or should i not move on?
or is it
can i or can i not..?
evangeline
*freaking crying*
who understand me??
ans:no one..?!
i some how hope im in coma..
thn i would nt have to think but...
wad about my love one... do i have one..?
can i have some one in my life ..??
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i shd nv fall in it
haiis.. 160209
nothing much.. wanted to meet syl at back gate pass him dehr present but he quite late,
so i went in first lohr...
help to take the thing untill recess...
darm suay lehh tdy, everything like cock up lohr..
bits mood swing lehhs.
skool nothing much, juz dun wanna study.. once reach hme start to hmework lohr..
thn now resting coz no mood.. haiis...
u noe went across XXX profile...
hmmmph, saw quite alot of girls commentssss...
so suddenly my mood is like very confused..
wonder do i still love XXX or wad..
haiis, how could i ever let him go man?
im freaking out lohr...
how would i hope tat there's someone out there, some where..
come so0n to help me..
help me to remove my memorise..
remove me from my agnoy..
pls dun make me hate myself man!!
no mood for anything!
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siianX~
today;140209..
hmmp, quite a few day nv post lohr...
no time use comp so nv post ...
haiis.. so siian lohr...
ytd got extra math test idk how to do!!! die!!!! cfm kanna scold de...
then went to eat ice kachang with grace...
but darm it.. ytd she tell me tat she cnnt meet me go out liaos..
super angry, coz plan hao liao then she say officer say got thing..
ughhhh, so late min ask if da lao puo is free...
then went out with her lohr...
go plaza sing walk walk.....
blahblah...
bought some stuff for valentine.. and a special person.. ahhaha..
went to orchard walk darm long then find the bloody far east plaza...
lols....
laopuo bought her shoe... heheheX...
go woodland wanted pierce but there dun have so nv pierce...
while searching for wrapper saw i think around 4 guys use those chuchu cor my laopuo and me..
but we ignore lohr..
hahaha..
then wanted eat kfc there but alot ppl...
so take train come back smb buy then back ...
now at her hse use comp...
then later make present jiu maybe go meet eena...
ib i to0 late then she no meet me bahhs..
hahhaas...
haiis, such a boring 14.02.09...
hate it man!!!
im so alone!!!!
evangeline hate today!!!
byeeeeeeee
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im freaking out!~
tdy 090209
was darm tired in skool lahr... cus last nite didn't slp much... ughhh..
wonder why i so laid back everytime.. haiis..
was kind of freaking out for my ss test lahr...
haven realli rmb much...
so halfway through the test i gave up already...
lols..
reach home, sent to many contact that i change number already, so my hp was like super duper laggy... lols...
rest for like an hours i came to smb lan shop to do some research lahr... tmr nid hand in!!
I FORGETTON!! siao liao lehr lohr...
tdy cnnt slp much again...
omg, im not a superwomen lehhs..
who can save me siia...
*sigh*
hmmmp,so have to work hard now lehr...
posting again soon ya...
tadaaaaa!!!
evangeline hate herself & alone on a special day=(
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I hate myself!
haven been posting for like 2 days..?
nth much bahhs..
but now is like freaking rush for homework lahr...
i hate myself for being do @#$%^&* laid back lahr..
then now have to like freaking rush the homework..
ughhhh**
headache... some more tmr i got test...
if i fail my teacher going to kil me..
haiis**
nvm, tdy went to change phone...
spent 200 lohr... bought samsung f480...
happi luhh... but totally broke liao..
hao lahr.... gt time then update .. have to rush my work liao..
tadaaaaaa^^
evangeline hate herself..
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wads my mo0d..?!
ermmm, now still 060209...
hahhas, juz now went to watch movie with sylvester... i watch ' the wedding game'
it was funny lohr.. i went laughing till my stomach ache.. heheX..
during the movie there's something bothering me , but idk wad it is lohr..
nevermind, when going back i like gonggong go take wrong mrt which go to marsiling...!! but i wan go back smb... i went into the mrt with a guy with cap(idk who).. then after when i reach back smb right i saw him in arcade siia... hahhas.. world so small lohr.. heheh...
but , then hor... say eena and liyan... i asl them accompany me play game right, then idiot halfway say she going home.. was abit piss-off lahr.. wad a fren lai dehr.. nevermind dun ruin my mood for my dinner later...
im going meet my er jie at cwp later... gonna check if sushi have buffet.. yumyum~ hope so have lehh, i wan t0 eat...!!!!
so see yar!!!
TADAAAAAA
EVANGELINE HATE HERSELF!
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bits mo0dswing?!
heheXD 060209
tdy my da jie boyfriend b'dae.. i dont have his number so i msq jie ask him help me tell him happi b'dae lohr....
HAPPY B'DAE CS!
ehhs,tdy skool day quite short lohr, so nothing much about it... wahh, have a bloody hard math test... 5ques idk how to do siia.. is like 13 marks lahr.. then the paper is 25.. so i cfm fail liao lohr..
aiya, blame myself for can't rmbing how to do lohr...
lols... me and grace laopuo kept playing with the tape writer thing.. hehe, the sound very irritating lahr, but nvm... FUN WAD!~
so recess wad eating tomyam, so spicy.. bleah=p
was halfway eating thn my so called frens from oppsite table keep di siaosiao throw snack over..
so i was like du lan alrdy but nv say anything, the second time i fcuk-up i shouted" kan ni na, can dun throw alrdy" i now adays keep moodswing...
oh ya, i rmb i got like show black face to sylverster meowmeow.. sorry for tat lohr.. i didn't mean it..
SORRY SYLVESTER~
hahs, now reach home rest awhile then going to bath and go out watch MOVIE!!!!
finally i get to relax after a week!
heehees..
hmmp, meeting my gans meowmeow bf later at 2+...
he better nort fell alslp.. lols..
btw ytd my gan erzi, hweekang was so sweet lohr.. he sent me a msq was like he gib me 3 roses
which is fake lohr... then he will love mummy till the last rose die.. so sweet~
so mummy will love ue to0^^
haiis, ytd was really moodswing, keep emoing lehhs.. i sat at side at the room and began crying...(shhhh,those see this blog dun say out okie) i also dunno wad im crying for also... jiu shi confuse lohr..
i lie on bed keep crying keep crying.. angry with myself also.. i decided to slp lohr.. then i tell meow meow i go slp lehr.. so he sent me goodnite msq so sweet of him to0^^
EVANGELINE♥ HER GANS
-GRACE
-HWEEKANG
-SYLVERSTER
-RONNIE
MANY OTHERS.. =)))
♥ EVANGELINE IS ALONE ON 14.02.09♥
will try to update de okie..
bless those who read this..*muack*
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i had nothing left
050209..
hahahs.. tdy my dajie b'dae.. but celebrated it ytd with angie the choice cake..
my mum ask to buy about8+...
i pay half the money... lols..(ex wor)
but the most important thing is when i went to sp to buy the cake..
i saw the XXX lahr... is like the world is so small man...
starting he is like nv see me but after tat we're away for some distance he say hi so i juz like -_-''' hi back lohr... my mood totally change lahr.. i msq john lohr.. then he say he will stand with me ...
so thank lohr..
same to sylverster to0.. he will take kare of me even ib i am not sick.. so sweet of him yar.. thank sylvester..!
so was em0ing after cutting the cake lohr, atucally the cake should taste darm nice de cuz i love it but thn at that moment it doesn't taste as well as before..
that was for ytd nite~
so tdy was also the same.. bored...
had two test.. poa , teacher never come so do the test was like can check for answer from the file...-_-'''
chinese test: hmmmm, i think hard siia.. i scared i cnnt pass siok..
blahblahblah... class com miting lalalals`
thn came home liao lohr... so siianX..
maybe going to slp bahs..
see how lohr..
will not post at nite de bahhs, nite sis come back cnnt use laptop.(heehees)
will try to update alot .. but also no ppl see*evil laugh*
♥ EVANGELINE WILL BE ALONE ON 14.02.09♥
♥ EVANGELINE LOVE HERSELF♥
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nothing much~
hmmp, 040209
very tired lohr... nv slp much last night...
went to skool as usual ......
mother tongue class , ermmmm so boring ...
poa lesson heavy chpt to rmb, nv do mind-map(heehees)
eng lesson, super duper siianX.. my laopuo grace was stretching herself thn mdm chai(eng teacher) tot she was like toking thn scolded her... lols...
i get scolded for nth also lahr, nth really scold lehr ish like nag or something..
some more she release us darm late lahr, so i no choice but dun eat lohr...
went to math lesson learn new stuff was hard lahr but least tdy i sit with HU ZI(ronnie) my classmate... he help me along while he do, i keep ask him que but he nv get angry or irritated..
such a good friend! thank ya RONNIE!
art lesson.. bored lahr thn have to start on developing our work..
i totally got no idea wad to do...
me and XXX was doing the same theme and she draw is #$%^-ing nice de lahr.. i got no way to fight with her one.. so when XXX says she got no idea of wad to draw i was piss off man..
being a bit angry and irritated i sat alone thinking of wad to do..
can't tahan!
went to elena for help , showing her my pic .. she help me and gave me 3 ideas..
was darm darm darm greatful to her!
thank elena..
not forgetiing pamela, she teaches me how to draw and stuff giving me to mood to lohr..
ring!!!! lols.. let go already , pamela, elena and me went to eat together in skool after tat come home lehr lohr..
never think much about him already.. i found out that im not really alone lohr.. i got frensss....
best of all is my GANSSS lohr..
-maggie(big wife)
-grace(2ndwife)
-rowell(3rd wife)
-madeline law(4th wife)
-sylvester(meowmeow bf)
-ronnie(huzi)
-john(papa)
-chenfei(mama)
-hweekang(er-zi)
-marcus(ranger)
-sueanne(jiejie)
-liyan(nu er)
-dekang(didi)
etc lohr.... hahhas...
ohhs ya, msq my er zi whole day in skoool wahahha..
we same boat mahhs..
heheXD
now chatting with er zi on phone^^
kaka=))
TADAAAAAAA><
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*sigh*
now 11.17pm
nort going to slp bahhs..
hmmp, ask my gan some silly question and return me some silly answer also lahr..
hope all the best for gans..!
haiis, ask XXX to be free on next sat which is u noe 14.02.09...
but he juz return a 'not sure' to me.. really dissappointed lahr.. mayb i should forget all about it..
i really dunno wads is it nw lahr.. haiis.. everything sux man...!
going to rest awhile and start to do my work lehr..
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evangeline gonna be alone on qing ren jie!~
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tired!~
hmmm, going 10pm lohr... haven done my homework yet...
mayb not going to slp again tonite bahhs.. see how lohr..
sadded lohr.. aiya.. nvm lahr.. wo hui jiayou dehr..
im no longer the same.. im gonna work hard to my goals..
choosen a name:evangeline, thank to er jie.. wahhahas.. lols..
so evangeline love herself and Gans tat stay by her when she going down!~
tadaaaaa!
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br0ken hearted♥ ♥
today:03.02.09
hmmm, juz created another bloq again.. but won't to updating often..
cuz i dun get to use comp/laptop.. only onece in the blue moon..
had a bloody long skool day till 5+.. was tired like hell.. decided to go sun plaze and buy top-up card before i used all my allowance.. walk and chatted with my 2nd laopuo grace~
reach there saw XXX.. stay and chatted awhile.. but u noe wad... i regretted..
i leave right infront of XXX, he don't even say bye or something..
it really makes me (no words)..
i cried while walking home!
but then again somehow i felt stupid.
so i try to settle myself down..
and im done... mayb im juz not good enough for others..
i just dunno wad to do anymore..
haiis..
i guess im no longer the girl i use to be...**
summary!
-im always being push around.
-not good enought for others.
-useless
-many more..
i guess my life will always be like this no matter wad..
everything goes the oppsite of me~
shall blog again ltr ib possible.. and will blog whenever i can=)
♥ evangeline♥
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