fat day!
today woke up quite late
then bath and sneek out of the house with my dajie and mummy.
we went to jurong point and wat zhous kitchen.
its a advance celebration for me and my mummy birthday..
nice right? my birthday say day and month with her.. hahaha
eat till like super full...
we went walking around..
then was very tired already..
went back to sp..
walking somemore! oh my god..
but i went to sasa and brought a blusher. so ex! my god..
then i went to buy foundation and eyeliner..
i need mascara man!
some one pls buy for me..
hahahhaha
came home... and im tired.. hahahha.. tdaaa...
enjoy the pictures. lol.
i had a great time laughing as my mummy dunno how to use my sister iphone..
so all her pic was blurred finallyy this is still okay.. heehees**
the three of us XD
thank to sister i got a great feast!
its us again.. ahhaha
im so full..heehees**
funny mummy and cheeky sister XD
happy advance to both girls!~
"im ready for my feast" 
hungry mummy & me. first to get the fo0d XD
MY da jie and me!
zhous kitchen buffet time**
PS: baby i miss you! wanna huggies u tight!~ muackie
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escape the reality..
wear similar shoes. lol.
tired! on our way home..
*oh my god! the doggie is so kawaii! baby i want one pls.. *
just for fun..
cute right??
today i woke up like quite late.. about 12++ 1++ like that ..
hahahhas...
decided to go out with my girlfriend..
at first we are like thinking, no $$ no place to go ..
but in the end we still choose to go to orchard..
we're suppose to meet at seven eleven at 3.25 dehr..
but u know my girlfriend..
she's always late..
hahahhahas...
we went to kopitiam and eat carrot cake.. chat chat lohr..
then we're on our way to orchard..
zzzz...
reach there we had nothing to do .
so bored, and i really mean BORED..
we started to get like abit fed up.
cause we dunno where to go mahhs..
walk and walk like two idiots..
still went to far east and walk..
she buy one hairband, four rings..
i only buy one glitter eyeliner..
i no $$ mahhs..
hhahahahhahaahha!!!
its like about 7.30..
took mrt go bugis..
walk bugis street ..
see so many cloth i like de lohr..
then $10 only... but i zzz lahr 10 bucks also dun have..
blahblah..
to0k mrt back to smb..
went to eat mac for dinner..
then came back home... hahahhaah (X
tadaaaa guys..
PS:baby baby i l0ve you!!! you're the best!
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sccreammm!!
MYSELF! i wearing fish legging boots and shirt..
face to ugly cnnt show.
MAGGIE!~
today went to school later..
my science pratical is like bull shit ...
u understand, BULL SHIT man!!
went to eat with maggie..
ahhaahs.
luckly she pei me ib not i hungry to death lohr..
*if you're going out then just say, dun say u going home or what. also, please give basic respect, look at the person when she talking to u .. dun just because u have ppl to play with and ignore the rest..
reflect uurside who is the one with u when u're down..*hmmm, msq jr ask ib need go school.
and its a MUST!
ughh** feel angry by it..
still went there..
maggie company me!! yea!!
the one that promise never come..
the one that never promise came with me..
hahahhas XD
can u imagine..
we cut paste tape write.
spent like so lots hour lehhs..
till like 4.30++ then we leave..
finally d0ne lehr..
but still got gaps must do ..
hahahaahah!!
i went over to maggie house..
we slack and chat chat..
then hahah, believe me we do girlish thing..
we change into dress to try out at first .. in the end
we see how to pose and walk..
like shit man.. wahhahaha!!
i was hungry, she co0k no0dle..
we ate 4 packets of noodle u know..
ahahhahahaa (X
watch diver boy's show..
ok ok lohr..
then watch wadever show, ending so lame.. ZZZ..
laugh like mad awhile and walk back home..
bath and now chatting..
blogg..
hahahhaha...
*yawn* night guyyy!
my energy is drained very tired.
PS: I LOVE YOU DEAR !
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happy birthday!
sister and me!
hahas, stupid me with the cake i make.
cake! after....
before.. with a heart ;X
there are some more pic but not in laptop...
so to0 bad....
today went to school and take two paper..
first was mcq of science..
i feel that its was totally crap..
second paper is poa..
cannt balance it but still feel okay with it..
once finish i went home and bath and change..
i to0k mrt to celebrate baby de birthday!
did nothing much...
just slack and chat ...
sorry dear..
but make a cake and a diy present for him.
hope he like it..
happy birthday BABY!
came home..
fun feel really go0d.
night night**
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bored!!
slept till so late ..
went to eat sushi with sister..
ate like less than ten plates(i mean both of us)
i went to art..
make myy 8 boards..
im sick of it already!
went home lie on sofa!
i feel so bored..
slp for an hours i guess..
now im left alone in the house..
i dunno why im so bored..
im so no mood..
i really wonder..
hmmmm, h0pe baby enj0yingg himself at his fren birthday..
muack**
im bored bored bored.!
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lalalalalalalla
ZHENG RUILIN IS TIRED!!!!!!!!
ZHENG RUILIN IS FREAK OUT!!!!!!!
ZHENG RUILIN IS FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!
ZHENG RUILIN WANTS TO DIE!!!!!!!
ZHENG RUILIN DUN WANT TO LIVE!!!!!
ZHENG RUILIN WANTS FASTER FINISH THIS YEAR!!!
ZHENG RUILIN IS SAD!!!!!!
ZHENG RUILIN IS ANGRY!!!!!!!!!
ZHENG RUILIN IS IDIOT!!!!!!!!
ZHENG RUILIN IS NUMM AFTER ALL THIS.
THE WORLD SUCK.
EVERYTHING SUCK.
FUCK OFF.
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ZRL SUCK
today morning..
nothing but just something..
at home slp till like dunno what time..
wake up , lalalls.
went to lunch with sister...
came back we make co0kie again!!!!!!!!
starting it did not work out.. but..
at last it finally did..
lo0k still not bad..
ahhahhs.. gonna find my babyy as my ginea pigg again XD
he won't mind de right?! he love me so much :X
watch tv, time pass so slowly w/0 him..
haiis, dunno he got miss me anot..
sent him msq but he didn't reply..
was bit worry so sent another one..
he reply lohr...
hmmm, that moment i dunno what im feeling..
like abit sad like abit angry like abit jealous..
hmmm, but i feel so sorry that i cause him sadness..
baby baby, sorry..
girlfriend didn't mean it dehr..
just to0 w0rry about u ..
sorry sorry..
my BOYFRIEND is such a rare person.
he never really gets angry with me.
even ib he is angry he would so0n not be.
he dote me lots and love me lots.
i hope i can give him m0re than now.
baby i l0ve you & i'm sorry.
evangeline is mo0dy nowadays..
cause of women thingy?! or maybe of stress..
sorry ib she done anything bad.
please bao rong her first..
sorry.
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i had fear
today i went to school for chinese paper 1.
its quite okay, but not feeling really go0d.
i knew something bad is going to happen.
but i manage to pass the time with a smile..
then ish history paper..
suck lahr,
comfirm no A already.
whatever.
went to art..
there's so many many thing i need to do..
i cannot handle it anymore..
ruilin is fear of going in art ro0m.
ruilin is fear of holding paintbrush.
ruilin is fear of pencil.
ruilin is fear of art.
ruilin is fear of tears.
ruilin is fear of COLOURS.
ruilin hope that her world have no colour.
because of ART ruilin hates colours..
let my world be black and white
,just black and white..
or maybe..........
just let ruilin world be blank..
nothing but a blank piece of paper...
i cannot face my artro0m anymore..
in the class i have to bear with my tears..
i bear so hard that it actually hurt my heart alot.
i clenched my fist hard and reminded myself not to cry.
& i decided to go off..
i went seperate ways from elena..
this moment my tears just fall off like nobody business..
i walk to 325 playgrond.
i sat there cryingg..
i felt so shameful..
now that i learn something about myself:
" i'm atucally not as mature as i think i am. i cannot handle things i can handle last time."
"im not as strong as i think i am suppose to"
sorry if i do not talk
sorry if i ignore
sorry if my face is black
sorry if im emo
sorry, sorry..
but i really dunno how to face myself.
i dun even dare to look in the mirror now.
don't bother to pick me up.
im scared it will pull you down.
*thank b0yfriend for consolding me when i need some but didn't recieve any*
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